We laid my dad to rest this past Saturday. It was a rough day for all of us, and I am glad it is behind us. Life must go on, I know that, but I’m still sad and I’m still dealing with so many emotions. I miss my dad so much. My focus has now shifted to my mom, though, and even though she doesn’t need to be “taken care of”, so to speak, I feel that I have to take care of her. She is here with us this week, but it is just a matter of days until she has to go home alone. My heart aches for her.
I thank you all again for all of your support over the past weeks. It really meant a lot to me. I am going to do my best to reply to everyone individually, but until I do, please accept my sincere gratitude for all of your kind words. So many of you reached out to me and shared similar stories, and as much as I hate for anyone else to go through what I did, it helped me to know that there are people out there that understand and knew how I felt.
It is hard for me not to feel sad and frustrated all the time. Sure, I have moments of happiness, but deep down I just feel sad. I’m making it a point, though, to try to remain positive and make the best out of the days ahead. That is what my dad would have wanted. 2011 has been a rough year for me so far, and if I don’t focus on the positives in my life, I will drive myself crazy.
So here I am. Back to blogging. I feel so out of touch and I’m looking forward to catching up with everyone and reconnecting with my bloggy buddies. I have some fun giveaways coming up in the next couple of weeks, so stay tuned for those. In the meantime…have a great day! Or better yet, make it a great day!
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It's fine to have your sad times. That's perfectly normal. but you, I am sure, have so many wonderful memories of times spent together. I always talk about things just like normal about my mom and dad and always have. It just keeps us close. As far as my mom, when her husband passed away in 2001, she was such a strong person she carried on as usual. Again, we talked normally about my 'pop' and talked about our feelings all of the time so it was always comfortable.
I hope you get to that point. Take care.
I have no words for the despair and grief you are experiencing. One foot in front of the other...it won't ever be easy, but it will get easier.
Oh poppit, it's such an awful time for you and your family. When my dad passed away, we were initially worried about our mum, but it's surprising the affect grandchildren can have. Linda is right, talking normally about your dad will help, it's weird at first, but now we can talk about him and not get choked up. Take time for yourself, I know it doesn't seem like it now, but things will get easier, thinking of you x
It's never easy to move past the loss of a loved one, especially a parent. I will be keeping you and your family in prayer.
I'm so sorry for your loss, LeAnn. I will be keeping you & your family in my thoughts & prayers. ((HUGS))
My heart aches for you and your family.
Glad you're slowing making your way back. It's not easy but necessary.
So sorry to hear about your loss and ups and downs. I truly hope you can find some happy times soon again.
Hugs from one blogger to another!!
my soul feels your pain, my mother passed a few years ago. It is hard, every day is hard. But life is too sweet to stay sad, I hope it gets easier for you and for your mother. xoxoxoxo
I am so glad you are back...I missed you :) Maybe trying to get back to 'normal' is a good thing...it will shift the focus off of your sadness and on to other things. The pain and sadness will never really go away, but how you choose to deal with it makes all the difference. I will email you later tonight. And I just dropped a caed in the mail to you :)
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I am so so sorry for your loss. I lost my dad about three years ago, so I've been there. (((Hugs)))
Oh sweet girl, this breaks my heart, and I know right where you are with your mom. I wish I could hug you in person. Know that I care very, very much! (((hugs)))
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((hugs)) like I've said before it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through. I know right where you're at. I didn't blog for almost 6 months other than the occasional post here and there, I just didn't want to. I will be praying for you all.
I can't imagine what you are going through. praying for you and your family
I am so sorry for your lost. I cannot imagine what you are going through, but my thoughts are with you and your family!
My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you and your family.
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